My Guardian.

It means so much to me to have someone who just looks at me and knows that words aren't important in the moment. There's nothing to say to make things different than what they are. They just are the way they are. And even though it's not ideal, it's okay that they are that way.

Today I actually cried during my medball pass workout. I usually use two straps during the exercise. Today we took it down to one because I was getting pretty good with two. One was really tough. I was off balance for most of the exercise. It was quite a core workout if I've ever had one. Brian was right there. Nothing was going to happen to me. I wasn't really afraid of that....although it is kinda scary. But it's more frustrating. But, I did it. And I got better as we went. And then we changed medball exercises and did each side separately and we discovered one side is quite a bit stronger than the other and on my stronger side, Brian actually made me laugh and had me talking. Which was cool because I was actually able to stabilize without concentrating so hard.

When I started to cry during our regular passes, Brian just stood there, and then he said "It just sucks doesn't it?" And I smiled. And when we were all done he gave me a hug, and my heart smiled. No patronizing comfort words trying to make anything go away or smooth it over so it doesn't seem as bad as it is. It just is. And we deal with it together. And it's really awesome to have someone to deal with it with me.

Close Grips with Pauses - 135 lbs., 5. 145 lbs., 2 sets of 5. 150 lbs., 2 sets of 5
Cambered Bar Rows - 75 lbs., 4 sets of 10.
Lateral Pulldowns - 70 lbs., 10. 60 lbs., 2 sets of 10.
Medball Passes - 1 set each way
Medball Reaches - set of 10 each side

<3 Stretching <3