GREAT Competition

I think most everyone that gets this also has Facebook & already knows everything, but, just in case, I thought I should probably blog :)

I got ALL 3 lifts, ALL 9 white lights!!!!! 148 lbs., 170 lbs., 181 lbs!!!!!!!

I weighed in at 119.24.

I actually stopped mid-lift, half-way up, on the last one, but, I drove through & had no trouble with the lockout :)

Shane has taught me a lot about when to focus & now being 'too' focused & using all that energy. So, I made some adjustments with that.

Wade told me to treat it exactly like training day. So, I made some adjustments there.

And when I still ended up freaking myself out, I just remembered every single time Brian has told me this is what I'm supposed to be doing...it's what I was born to do...So, I did it :)

Here are the youtube links to my lifts:

148 ~ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=egBHlvo-7BE&NR=1

170 ~ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fHl498Ga_x0&NR=1

181 ~ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tfYoOTsgGck


It's been a rough year, but, I've learned SO much. I was so mentally different at this meet than I ever have been at any other meet. I wasn't concentrated on who was gonna think what if I missed my lifts. I just did it. Cuz, that's what I was born to do :) I also felt great physically.

Rolaids

Well, my blog tonight was originally going to be entitled "Relief". Then I found I already have a blog entry with that name. So, I messaged my mom on Facebook (while I was downstairs and she was upstairs) & asked her what product used their name and said it spelled relief. She said Rolaids. I said "For heartburn?" She said yes. And thus the subject for this blog entry was born. It's kinda funny that it was a product to relieve heartburn. I was going to talk about my heart being so much happier recently. :-)

I know that some of you are going to be greatly disappointed but I've decided to continue to keep this blogging thing to a minimum. I'm so much happier with my mental game since I haven't been blogging, which has made me so much happier in my workouts. I don't worry about what it is when I fail. Brian knows & he'll figure out how to fix it. So, I'm finally just moving on to the next thing instead of having an aneurysm because my bench 'isn't going up' every. single. solitary. time. When Brian isn't quite sure, he talks to me about it, but without mentioning any weights, and today I was able to correct a form issue without getting all bent out of shape about struggling because I had no idea what I struggled with. It was something that was so slight that he never would have been able to see it to address it for me...it had to be me that fixed it. It worked. I ended up doing 180 for an easy single on Wednesday. Today I did hit 175 once, which was what i struggled with just a bit, but, ended up hitting 170 for 4 singles once I got my form worked out. All's well in the neighborhood.

Then on black-miniband triceps pressdowns, Brian hit me with the band a few times & made me laugh. Those moments are always high on the list to help me breathe a little easier as well. :-)

A week out tomorrow (Saturday). I'll update after the meet. Later gators!

Down to Business

Well, I don't know how today went. I think it's best. I failed on my last attempt of a single. I have no idea what it was. I very purposely kept it as such. I could only assume I wasn't supposed to by the reaction & the fact that Brian told me at the beginning to leave one left over. So, it is what it is. My numbers for the meet are set & I'll do better this coming week & be prepared for the meet. And I can't freak out because I have no idea just exactly how I did today. I just continued talking & so did he, and we moved forward with the day. Two weeks tomorrow is the meet.


Brian is 8 wks. out of his body-building show, I'm pretty sure. I'm SOOOOOOOOO excited, cuz he started a blog!!!!!! YAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!! Everyone follow him at workout-center.blogspot.com. Check out his picture. He looks incredible! I can't believe he still has two months to go!!!!!! If you need any personal training or diets, call The Workout Center!!!!!!!! :-D

TWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We all know how much I LOOOOVE birthdays right?!?!?!? Well...HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my training journey with Brian!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Guess what?! It's been TWO YEARS since I had to switch trainers. TWO YEARS!!!!!! I've been training with Brian for as long as it took me to find him! lol. This birthday won't last all week...there won't be any special treat dinners or anything. I'm less than 3 wks from a meet & Brian is getting closer to his body-building show & doesn't get but 1 hour once a week to cheat. BUT it DEFINITELY deserves recognition. This is huge for me...it brings tears to my eyes & I'm so grateful I haven't had to go through that switching stuff again. No more "new guys"!!!!!!

I got a great revelation on Sunday. Quite possibly my favorite one ever. Although, I probably say that about every revelation when it's new. Anyway, here goes:

Sunday's message at church was about peace. One of the scriptures used was the one about Jesus being asleep in the boat when the storm started & the apostles panicked. In the beginning of that story in the Mark reference, Jesus says "Let us go over to the other side." The storm starts & the apostles panic & freak out & wake Jesus up & say to Him "Don't you care if we drown?" Jesus calms the storm. Then He says "Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?"

Ben, one of our Deacons who was giving the sermon, said first to notice that Jesus showed no slack to them. He didn't say "Oh, it's okay that you're afraid because you're human." SECOND (and this is the major revelation), He wasn't necessarily upset because of the general fact that they were afraid.....he was upset because He had already TOLD them, "Let us go to the other side." He didn't say let us go out & wander aimlessly & you just follow me. He said He was going to take them from point A to point B. God isn't going to tell you that He's taking you from point A to point B & let you drown in the middle. HE WILL get you there!!!

A year ago I was in Malaysia. Two weeks before I left as I sat in the stairwell very nervous, in tears & not wanting to leave. Brian stood on the steps & reassured me for a good 15 mins. that everything would be fine. He told me I'd be coming home & that he was staying around. He said he was gonna get me to this Paralympics & then to the next. He said something about taking care of my shoulders & things so he can still be training me in 10 years. He said he enjoys training me & when I got back from Malaysia he'd be here & we'd continue with life as normal.

This has been a very turbulent year for Brian & me...much more so than the first. In my opinion, I'm sure he'd trade starting at the beginning to figure out how to train me over what I put him through this year any day. I heeded what he said before I left for Malaysia.....for maybe a month. Then something else came up & I'd screw up or be in a bad mood or wouldn't lift well & I'd wonder again if he wanted to train me or if he'd had enough. This has been continuous because of my deep-rooted insecurities.

Then I heard the sermon on Sunday. Where is my faith? Why am I so afraid? Brian said everything I could have asked him to say. It was like it was scripted right from heaven coming out of his mouth to me. Why would I have any reason to think anything different, if he's never said any different or acted in a way as though he's going to leave. He was here when I got back, we continued as normal, it's a year later, he's still my trainer. He's the longest lasting trainer I've had. He talks about my future meets & what he's going to do with me & how he plans to get me stronger. What more do I need? (And there has been so much more that he has given me)

I'm sure the apostles were afraid because they themselves couldn't do anything about the storm. But, they should have known that Jesus was right there with them & there was no need to be worried. Jesus calmed the storm INSPITE of the Apostles unbelief. I have been so afraid because I knew I couldn't do anything on my own to get to the Paralympics. Brian has been a trooper & continued to train me INSPITE of my own unbelief. Funniest (well, not really funny haha, but, interesting) thing about it is at one point I also questioned Brian about whether he cared or not.

Brian said he'd get me from point A to point B. He's not gonna let me drown in the middle. Not only that, but GOD has given me the vision for the Paralympics. So, beyond human error that could occur at any time GOD will NOT let me drown between point A & point B. If I lost everything I've built with Brian as my trainer, God would still be able to get me to the Paralympics. My peace is in God. That's all I need.

I'm ready to get out of my own way. I've said that before, but each time I do better & better at it. I don't need to do a thing but go in & lift. Brian's waiting for me there at the gym each day when I'm supposed to show up. He's got my program in hand & he believes some day we're gonna make it happen. I just need to lift & it will happen, some day.

I think I've learned more lessons this year than any other year of my life. I can actually feel myself maturing. I've taken huge steps...monumental steps...that I wouldn't have taken 2 years ago. They've been taken mostly at Brian's prodding. But they've turned out to be what's best for me. He cares all right....probably more than I could imagine. He's still my trainer. And he's better than the best of the best at his job. No one has been able to suggest anything for the weight room that he hasn't already done with me or that he hasn't already figured out isn't good for me because of my condition. I look forward to a much better third year and an even better fourth...and so on down the line...atleast to 10 years, right? ;-) I'm so very blessed. I just wish I wasn't so spoiled that it clouded my view so often.

Happy birthday Official Training Journey. You're a dream come true, in more ways than I can count.

P.S. ~ Happy Anniversary to my parents :-)