Some Days Look Better Upside Down.

I'm not sure if I like Eeyore cuz I'm moody. Or if I'm moody cuz I like Eeyore. Either way, both are true. I like Eeyore and I'm moody. I have an Eeyore plate collection in my room and the very first one I got says "Some days look better upside down," and he's standing on his head. After I got that plate, my mom got me earrings of him on his head, and then later a necklace of him standing on his head and the heart around him has the same logo. There's a lamp out there of him standing on his head, but, I don't have it yet. But I did get a shirt this Christmas that says the same thing and has him standing on his head.

Holidays are pitiful things for me. I don't know why. I don't know what ever happened...if there is anything that ever happened...or if I just don't like them. But, it's pretty ugly. I despise being off my schedule. Truly. And it's tough for me to get through holidays without me hurting someone's feelings. Not on purpose. Just cuz I'm so thrown off that I don't know what to do with myself.

Ya know, Brian sat me down before Malaysia and basically the summary of what he said was that I was coming home from Malaysia and he was still gonna be here to train me when I did return. Sounds pretty basic and logical, right? But, it worked miraculously, and I was okay for the next two weeks before I left. It's almost like I need to be told something along the same lines any time there's a break in my schedule for any reason. "Chels, this is very temporary and things will be normal again soon and everyone and everything is gonna go right back to where it should be in just a few short days." Unfortunately, I have to get through two weeks in a row this time of year. Things were semi-normal today, but, I'll be super happy when next Monday comes and everything is over and we can return to business as usual.

In case it isn't completely, painfully obvious at this point, I didn't train yesterday. With good reason, of course. Brian definitely needed and deserved time off. (He should take more.)

So, back at it today we went. And it was a great workout. He's really found a great thing for me with this RPE program, I think. It really seems to be working very well.

Today's RPE was 9, I think:
Close Grip with 1/2 Board - 135 lbs., 145 lbs., 155 lbs., 160 lbs., 150 lbs., all for 4.
Military Press - 65 lbs., 75 lb., 85 lbs., 80 lbs., all for 4.
Facedown Lying Lateral Raises - 15 lbs., 3 sets of 12.
Triceps Pressdowns - 90 lbs., 100 lbs., 110 lbs., all for 12. 120 lbs., for 6 (Brian helped with 2...I was cooked).

I'm very blessed to have found Brian. He puts up with a lot of garbage from me. And still lets me show up again the next day. I hope he takes most of it as a grain of salt, and realizes that it doesn't cloud how much I truly appreciate everything he does and how hard he works with me.

Things will be normal again next week. I just have to keep reminding myself.