Still Small Voice.

I was listening to my radio in my car today. The song '1979' by Smashing Pumpkins came on. I couldn't name you one other song by Smashing Pumpkins. And I actually don't even know 95% of the words to '1979', but, I get a comforted feeling when I hear that song. It's not a christian song or anything of the sort. But, along with my blood-related big brother, there are 3 guys that he was best friends with in school that I also call my 'big brother' and one lived with us for a short time. I remember sitting at the top of my hill on my driveway back when he was in high school talking and laughing with him while he was doing yard work one day and was letting me help. THAT song came on the radio and he started telling me stuff about the Smashing Pumpkins. We were laughing and having a good time and I felt safe and accepted at that time. And every time I hear THAT song, I think about that and it makes me feel the same way.

“A silent look of affection and regard when all other eyes are turned coldly away--the consciousness that we possess the sympathy and affection of one being when all others have deserted us--is a hold, a stay, a comfort, in the deepest affliction, which no wealth could purchase, or power bestow.” ~ Charles Dickens

I found this quote this week. It's a new favorite of mine. I love it. It makes me smile. It reminds me of God's Still Small Voice. Cuz in my opinion, God's Still Small Voice doesn't actually have to be words or something specifically spoken to us. To me, 1979 by Smashing Pumpkins is God's Still Small Voice...cuz it reminds me of a time that made me happy and safe and accepted. And, not all the time but, a lot of times it comes on when I need to feel that and remember that I am safe and accepted and should be happy about it!!!!!

Today I was balancing myself on the end of the decline bench getting in position to get stretched. Brian asked if I was okay before he took my chair away and I said No, he had to help me lay back first. He grabbed my hand and I squeezed his thumb cuz I couldn't tell where I was on the bench or what was around to grab ahold of. Very quietly he said "I'm not gonna let anything happen to you." And I exhaled and I looked up and said "I know" and laid backwards without even thinking about it. I don't know why it takes reminding and I can't just know instinctively all the time. I do know instinctively most of the time. But, we all have our days. Right? And that's when the Still Small Voice shines through.....if we listen for it and believe it when it speaks. I think that a lot of my bad days are because I want the Still Small Voice all the time! I want reminded all the time! But, that isn't faith...and it can tend to get annoying to the one that has the job of reminding all the time. I'm sure even God shakes His head at us sometimes and says "But, I've told you. Why don't you trust me?"

So here are today's numbers:

Barbell Rows - 65 lbs., 85 lbs., 95 lbs.(2 sets), all for 10.
Dumbbell Rows - 35 lbs., 4 sets of 12.
Brian moved up today to put his whole shin on my back. His knees were almost in my shoulder blades. But, it helped A LOT to keep me in position and the exercise felt very very good!
Pullovers - 35 lbs., 12. 40 lbs., 2 sets of 12.

<3 Stretching <3

My competition is back on! In 4 weeks!!!! AND next Sunday i get to present Brian's Businessperson of the Year award to him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited :-D