Frequency.

I anticipate too much. I'm not good at processes and letting things 'play out' or 'work themselves out.' I anticipate things too much. I also worry that if they aren't fixed right away, they won't be. I like to have all my ducks in a row...a little too much.

Brian and I talked today about my shaking in mid-speech and how it correlates with me missing my last lift. Brian says stop thinking so much :-D It made me laugh...that's usually his answer to most things. A lot of times he's right though. He said that I'm normal and just like everyone else....actually a little better at things than everyone else, because I don't freeze right from the beginning. But, in the middle of it I realize where I'm at and what's going on. He said if I spoke more, it would eventually go away. He also said that as I compete more often, it will go away in that situation also. Just like I used to roll into my shoulders and I don't anymore. Just like I used to flare my elbows and I don't anymore. I just haven't competed enough yet. It'll come though. I just have to accept that it isn't here and I can't make it be here right now. It has to come in it's time. Not mine.

Double-Arm Dumbbell Rows - 35 lbs., 12. 40 lbs., 45 lbs., 50 lbs., 55 lbs., 50 lbs., all for 6.
PullOvers - 35 lbs., 40 lbs., 45 lbs., all for 12.
Black Mini-Band Face Pulls - 3 sets of 15. I requested facepulls today (When I do them on cabled, I call them cable iron crosses). I wasn't so excited when Brian suggested banded ones. I knew that meant I was staying in my chair. I don't normally like things that I stay in my chair for. Usually I can't pull my arms back and I can't figure out why. Well, today i finally figured out the issue. I had Brian put a strap around my belly and my chair so that I had something to push against. It helped A LOT. Brian didn't have to hold me back at all..Just held my chair down. I loved them. I liked them better than the cable ones. It felt great.

<3 Stretching <3