Awestruck.

In both good and bad ways.

I was sitting out in the parking lot, on the blacktop, stretching out because it was such a great day. The wind started to blow and I pulled my knees up to my chest to sit for a second in between stretches. The song that came on my mp3 player was "Time of my Life" by David Cook. I started to cry. Ya know how you just get complacent and used to things and you don't realize it but you start to lose your appreciation? Well, that's been me lately. I sat there and played the song over a second time and just thought about how I'm truly living a dream. It's a real life dream. I've got interviews for articles, and writing my own articles, and people asking my advice, and a trainer that is just as steadfast as anyone can be, through thick and thin. Then I thought of the Daughtry song that says 'Be careful what you wish for, cuz you just might get it all, you just might get it all...and then some you don't want.' And I laughed...there's plenty that comes with it that you don't bargain for. But, that's what keeps things hoppin' and interesting...and it's what brings you to these revelations of how completely amazing everything else about it is when you're sitting on the blacktop of your gym parking lot in the breeze of a spring day doing your stretches.

So, after that, I was ready and raring to go today. I was really ready to hit it. Just crush it. I went in and watched Brian finish up with the client before me. It was entertaining. I was having a good time laughing at the conversation. We started our session. We were doing singles with one left over (RPE of 9). 135 went up like a shot. So did 150 and 160. .......170 buried me. Again. Brian didn't miss a beat...he unloaded the bar and pulled me up, all the while whistling away to the song on the radio. I didn't even ask what it was. I kinda knew. All I said was "What'd ya see?" I kinda felt like I was in a little bit of shock...cuz I was SO ready to go today. Brian explained a little bit of the Central Nervous System to me again. He said he's gonna re-work my entire program starting next week and it's not a big deal and I'll be fine. I said okay. And we went about our business. I felt pretty calm. I understood more today of what he was talking about and connected it with myself and what I'm doing. .....But I was still pretty shocked because I felt so ready to go. And then I smiled and breathed. Because it wasn't mental. :-) It wasn't mental. Training needs tweaked and I'm mentally okay. ....Then I asked a question a couple exercises later, and we scratched the rest of the day so we could talk. Brian wrote stuff down and drew lines and circled things and then he drew his own little graph and he drew a little stick-figure of me AND my chair. :-) It was fun. And I understood...which is even more fun.

SO, as luck would have it, today my heart rate monitor came in the mail!!! YAAAAAY! And I'm going to get on this program called TRAC that tests your CNS every morning to see how stressed you are and what kind of a workout your body can handle. I'm gonna play around with it a little this weekend and then get signed up on the program probably the beginning of the week. I'll have to give all my reports to Brian so he can tweak my training to go along with what my stress patterns are. Then, hopefully in the future we can avoid 170 ever burying me again....especially several times in the same month!!!!!!

We did some Military Dumbbell Presses & some skulls, but, they were light...then we talked.

I had an interview today for the Vindicator to do another article on me. And here is the link to my commencement speech on youtube for anyone that I might have missed sending it to: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ceh7oc8Kdbc