SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!

I don't really know what I did today or what the exercises were called that I was doing, but I have a good blog topic, so that's what I'm going to blog about. I was kind of in a hurry today, I had to get back for some calling hours, so I forgot to look at my board to remember what I had done.

So, has anyone ever told you to close your eyes and you had to trust and follow while they led you to a surprise they had for you? And the whole time, you're thinking "I really don't like this, why don't they just tell me what's going on." And the whole time you're thinking that, or maybe even saying it out loud, while you're stepping very carefully and being very apprehensive about the whole thing, they are saying "You're going to like it, just trust me. It's going to be worth it. You'll love it." But the whole time, you're grabbing at their hand as you stumble along the way. Maybe it isn't that you've ever been led anywhere, but maybe you've been made to closer your eyes or turn around while someone brought something to you. And when you get to the other side of the moment, you become absolutely elated at the event following all of the anticipation....right? (Well, most of the time anyway).

That's what I feel like I've gone through, with Adam, and with the Lord, for the last several months. And I'm finally brinking on the 'other side of the moment' where I get to become elated.

I have continually cried out in prayer as I have started my journey, because without help beyond what I could give myself, I knew it wasn't going to happen, physically OR financially. That's that hand reaching out as I stumble along my way. Well, I received two more checks in the mail from letters that I sent out in January. I came to my room and cried in a state of utter humility. With those, I have now exceeded the total goal that I wanted to receive in donations. So, no matter my lifting schedule, even if it increases, Adam is paid for through my qualifying competition in September. And I also have been able to start saving for costs for the competition in September, with May and June's competitions fully paid for. And, even though I still have to go to the competition to qualify, it actually calmed my nerves because I thought "The Lord is not going to provide such an open path, if I'm not going to make the cut."

And as I sat in my room and cried out of sheer gratitude, I heard the Lord say "I told you that you'd love it. You just needed to keep going."

So, today, Adam takes me over to a new seat back in the weight room that I've never been on before and he asks me if I can transfer up as high as it was. Obviously this loses a little effect since none of you are there to actually see the maneuvering I had to do. As I ***reached for Adam's hand***, and he stood and led me through it, I got up and into the right position on the seat, letting out a deep sigh of relief that it happened without incident (even though everything does). As I got done with my first set, I said to Adam "I really like this one" and Adam said "Yeah, I knew you would, we just had to get you up there." lol....anyone picking up on the pattern? Hilarious isn't it?

Now granted, this isn't the case with every exercise I do, BUT, that's still the part where I have to 'keep going' because, I may not be comfortable with how he's leading me through everything, but I sure like the outcome of being ahead 130 lbs from where I started less than a year ago!!!

So, anyway, that was today, at least part of it. It was a pretty big 'trust me' day from Adam to me, even though he doesn't have to say it anymore. But I did, and I did well.