Self-Confidence

Bonus Blog!!

Something bothered me as soon as I published the last post. So, I wanted to clarify. Self-confidence (and lack thereof) is a funny thing. The fact that it helps me to hear from other people that my form is great doesn't have anything to do with me doubting Brian, in the least bit. It has to do with me doubting myself. When you don't have a good self-esteem, as soon as someone pays you a compliment, 15 things run through your head about yourself that the other person doesn't know..."And if they did, they wouldn't feel the same." There's not much of anything about me that Brian doesn't know....but, it's still hard for me to believe good things about myself. All the things that change from being on the gym bench to being on the competition bench flash through my mind when he says that because I have myself convinced that they all screw with my form. THAT is why Brian tells me to stop thinking and just go do it. Because if I'm really secure in what I'm doing, it will NOT screw with my form THAT much. I won't be perfect every single time. But, thinking about everything that could go wrong before I leave because the setups are different, pretty much ensures that all of those things will go wrong when I get there...hence last weekend. I just have to learn to believe in myself. Period. End of conversation.