"The" Moment.

Well, I only had to wait to get 'the' moment till my second week...not the second month!! It took me forever to believe that Adam really "got" what I was feeling with my instability and how scary it is on certain exercises. I'm sure he understood before I knew he did, but it took him a while to talk to me about it (probably because it took me so long to talk to him about things). But, then there was a time, somewhere in January (I'm pretty sure), he finally said that he lifted his legs when he worked out to see if I was going to be able to do something. That was "the" moment. I knew he understood to whatever extent that he was capable of understanding, without actually being placed in the situation.

Tonight Brian thought we got off to a rough start...but it's just what I needed to truly switch my mindset from "New Guy" to "My Trainer". First exercise, I knew he was paying attention to stability, and it isn't even an exercise that I normally have stability problems with! Just about every exercise tonight, he said something or did something that got my attention and I realized that he's catching on quick to what he needs to watch for, what my reactions are, where my stability is normally off, etc. He even told me tonight that he knows 'that look' in my eye now. I know all of you aren't surprised because everyone thinks I'm an easy read...but, he picked up WHY I had 'that look' in my eye. He even noticed some small movements tonight, that didn't bother me...but at least it let me know that he's picking up on EVERYTHING. It REALLY loosened me up. He kept asking and asking every time I looked unsure, making sure that I kept talking. And it actually got to making me laugh when I came to doing bicep curls w/ an EZ bar...I knew it was going to be unstable...but I felt safe. He put me on a seat instead of in my chair, and strapped me in and I knew he was aware of what could happen. He also said at one point "You aren't getting mad are ya?" And I really was...but it made me smile and I relaxed.

I'm sure there will still be a moment here or there...but that's just what I needed to start feeling safe with him. He's really in this with me and it feels good. He lets me use wraps that he has, and he is always thinking about equipment that might make things more stable. We're starting to find a balance between something not being my favorite exercise, and we really shouldn't do it because it doesn't work the right muscles. I'm learning how to explain things so he knows if something isn't right or if it's normal sore stuff. I think I'm breaking him a little of playing it so safe :-) We're having a good time and laughing. He has a good idea of where I can go to weigh myself too. So that will be really nice if it works out okay.

Anyway, I'm going on and on. It's just a relief that it happened so quickly this time that I don't have to be so worried while I'm training. Here's my workout:

We tried Barbell Rows, I think 3 sets we tried them...and something just wasn't working right. My grip was bad...it was bothering my fingers. We tried same weight as last week. Then we switched to 45 lb. Dumbbells for 3 sets of 10.
Half Pull-ups - I think we did 3 or 4 sets of 15 tonight.
Single-Arm Scarecrows - This he put me on a seat and strapped me in, so that we didn't have to deal w/ my chair moving. We started w/ 20 lbs., 2 sets of 10, and then did a set at 30 lbs. We might have done more sets...not quite sure.
Lateral Pulldown didn't feel right tonight either...but we tightened my strap and I did better. I think we did a set of 10 at 80 lbs., and then we backed off to 70 lbs., because it wasn't working exactly right, but we did 3 sets I think at 70 lbs.
Barbell Bicep Curls, I think it was 10 lbs., on each side, 4 sets of 10.
Hammer Curls - 20 lb. Dumbbells, 2 sets of 10.
Med Ball Circles and Broomstick twists.

I forgot on Monday to put in that we did the rotator cuff exercise with 10 lb. dumbells. And we also did a grip exercise with 5 lb. plates (and after my terrible grip tonight, I think we need to do it more.) I didn't note on either Monday that the Close Grip that we do is with a wood board on my chest, so that I don't come down all the way...hopefully it's teaching me to push through that deadspot I have. We didn't do lateral raises tonight...I'm going to have to ask him about that. I knew something was missing at the end when I counted up my exercises because I knew there should be 8 and there were only 7...but I couldn't remember what the other one was.

I promise once I get going here and I'm in the habit and used to everything that I won't be so sketchy on what my sets and weights were. I just needed to get used to things.