P.R. !!

(For anyone that doesn't know, P.R. means Personal Record.)

So, I realized that this whole mental game can go both ways. It's not only believing that you can do something you probably shouldn't. It's also believing you will next time around when you don't make it.

My daddy came to watch me max today!! :-D Thanks Daddy. He was off work this afternoon, so he came up since it was my day to do singles.

My Workout:
Bench - Warm-up, 95 lbs., 10. 135 lbs., 3. A couple singles. Max out at 190 lbs.!! Never done that before!!! Never!! YAY!
Dumbbell Decline Press - 50 lbs., 8. 55 lbs., 8.
Skullcrushers - 30 lbs., (i finally remembered to ask! It's usually 40-50 lbs., but he took it easy on the elbow today) I think it was 4 sets....12 reps a set.
Shoulder Horn - 10 lbs., 2 sets of 30.
Abs on the half round thing :-D 2 sets of 12 and a set of 10 with a chain around my neck! lol. Fun times with crazy Brian.

So, I was a little bummed leaving the gym. I was really hoping for 195 lbs. But, I actually didn't even get the 190 lbs the first time. Brian helped a bit. But once I took a break and hit it again, I did it on my own. Anyway, I was leary of trying 195 lbs. after that, and if there's any hesitation I've learned I'm probably not going to get it. So we didn't try more.

On my way home I called my friend Scott. He asked me to call him when I maxed. He answered the phone and I said "I got 190," and I didn't say it very enthusiastically. He was on my tail before I ever finished my sentence, telling me I could be a little more proud of myself than I sounded. I told him I was hoping for 195. (And so was Brian....that always makes it a little rougher). Well, Scott went skiing this weekend and saw these kids that have Cerebral Palsy skiing and talked to them and told them about me and stuff. So Scott says to me on the phone, "Listen, that's 5 lbs. more than you got last time. You aren't going backwards. And you know those kids that I saw this weekend when I was skiing? They can't even get out of their wheelchairs to lift, so just be thankful that you are where you're at." It made me smile. I realized that setting your goals too high can be just as detrimental as setting them too low. He's right. It's more than I've ever done. And, what I wanted isn't that far off...I just have to wait longer. Not like I'm not going to get it. It just feels like every time I am very excited and feel ready and psyched up and I'm concentrated and mentally prepared, I do worse than what I want to do. I think I really have my heart set on funding qualification...especially since it's lower in the lower weight class...made it sound more believable to the near future. But, if it doesn't happen, I know I'll be funded. One way or the other.

We stretched today as well. :-) Thank you Brian.