Getting Personal

It's been a little while since I wrote a 'lesson' blog...so since my routine was considerably shorter, I'm gonna write about what God's taking me through right now.

I had a fairly rough night mentally. I think my inexperience is still working against me a bit. One of Brian's more famous sayings (at least with me) is "it changes from day to day Chelsi." I hope he keeps saying it to me...forever. I'm a huge fan of reliability and consistency and stability. I want everything to stay the same ALL THE TIME. It doesn't...in any area of life, nor does it in powerlifting. I think that because I did well on my lifts last week, I should again this week. There are so many factors to take into consideration...but I'm very bad at that. It takes lots of talks with trainers to get me past a bad lift (or what I consider a bad lift). But, after a few times of pounding it into my head, and answering all my questions, I usually do a pretty decent job of bouncing back and not having a bad lift the next time, just because one was unexpectedly bad.

Which kinda leads me into my next lesson. I've come up against this one a ton of times...but I'm never sure how to deal with it, and it usually ends up getting stuffed back down for a while. I have a very hard time with forgiving myself of things or of thinking that I'm worth being 'taken care of'...and that has lots of dimensions in it that we won't get into, considering this is all out on the internet and everything. But, if you ever are involved in any one of those dimensions, you'll definitely know, because I will thank you out the earlobes for making me feel worth the time :) But, I realized tonight that...I've always had the habit of doing things for other people because it's easier (for me) to make up for it when I disappoint them than if I had to deal with the fact that I'm disappointed in myself. I found it quite interesting.

So, I think I'll leave it at that. My night was actually fairly decent as far as lifting goes...but, my final lift just felt a little bit heavier than I expected it to. And, the first time I tried it, it wasn't too clean, but once we waited, I did MUCH better, and I didn't really feel like I wasn't going to get it, it was just not what I expected when I started pressing it. On top of that, I did a triple to start things out, and I'm only going to have to do one at the meet. Anywho :-) Here's my tonight:

Bench Press - 135 lbs., 3. 150 lbs., 1. 160 lbs., 1 & 1. Those were all done competition style with the proper pauses. Then, he put some heavier weights on (not sure what) and he just had me hold it above my head to get used to stabilizing heavier weight.
Arnold Presses - 30 lb. Dumbbells, 2 sets of 10.
Tricep Pushdowns - 70 lbs., 2 sets of 15.
Shoulder Horn - 5 lb Dumbbells, 2 sets of 25.
Band Abs & Stretching.